I'm Dieting...My Thoughts

So I am back on the kick...I have said I need to make a "lifestyle change", but let's get real...I'm on a diet!  And when I make the whole heart decision to do a diet...I am all in.  Thankfully for me, Sean is doing it to!  I WANT it to be a lifestyle change, but I'm taking baby steps here...I'm hoping that this "diet" BECOMES a lifestyle change.  The problem is, I am an addict...period.  I can do a diet and do it right for several months, but the day I decide to let myself just have ONE PIECE of cake...it's over.  My addiction though lets my brain believe that it will just be that one piece...really, this time it will.  Ugh.  I don't know how to stop that because I don't think I can legitimately NEVER have a piece of cake again.  Is that realistic?!  I don't think so.  So how do I make it a lifestyle change???  I hope I can figure that out someday!

So it's Paleo.  I really do love Paleo.  I LOVE meat and veggies and FRUIT...I LOVE fruit!  I have to say that we have been at this diet for over 4 days now (I know, not that long!), but I felt better after TWO!  I've done this diet before...and I never felt better.  There is something about eating clean that truly does make your insides feel..."clean".  I know that there is not an ounce of processed crap in my body and all the while I am satisfied.  Though, I must say, I am still hungry ALL THE TIME!  I could snack all day long.  However, I never get that miserable, yucky, full feeling on this diet ever.  Honestly, I haven't ever eaten more yummy things though!  We've had amazing meals these last 4 days and they haven't been difficult...just using much more fresh, yummy ingredients!  So while my body is feeling better and I am proud of myself for making truly healthy choices, our bank account is getting drained!  YIKES!  How do people continue to do this forever?!?!  My sister, Cassie is pretty legit Paleo and has been for a long time...how on earth????  Are you a closet millionaire or something?!?!!!  :)  I am going to need to make some serious budget adjustments to fund this diet!  I will do it though because it is our health we're talking about here...and nothing is really much more important than that!

Yes, I want to lose weight...obviously, but I ALSO want these consistent migraines I get to STOP and I want to feel better.  I plan to start running again because I really enjoyed it before.  Baby steps though, people...I haven't gotten that far yet. :)  I have had several people tell me I should do yoga.  I am not so sure that I could be a yogi, but never say never!  I certainly would have never thought that I could eat Paleo!!!  I love cheese!!!!  I love pasta, sugar, brownies, BUTTER, milk, chocolate, corn, caffeine, potatoes...CHEESE!  And when I say I LOVE those things...I mean, I am IN LOVE with those things...all of them.  So who knows...maybe I will try some yoga at some point.  Lord knows I could use a little calm and peace in my life!  For now, I will start with running, though...well, not for now...maybe in a few weeks! ;) lol

So we'll see how this goes.  I feel good.  One day at a time is my plan!