I hate rollercoasters...

I always have. And adoption/foster care is a rollercoaster, that's for sure. You're down and waiting, then you're up and happy and have hope, then you're plans come crashing down, but wait there's new hope and you think it's almost over, but all you can do is fear that there is going to be another loop or twist or free fall right around the corner that you weren't expecting. I am drained and emotional and stressed and frustrated, but at the same time I'm hopeful and excited and anxious. I'm going to have to get used to this...