Satan has been winning - a running update...

For the last 3 days, I haven't been running.

My time spent running is a time when I am completely consumed with the Lord.

I listen to my Mandisa Pandora Station (it's an AWESOME station!) and I pray.

It is my time every day that I cannot make it through a second of without talking to Him and praying for strength, because this running isn't easy for me.

I go to the Lord all the time and pray constantly each day.

This time is different though, it's JUST me and Him in those moments, it gives me clarity when I'm running. I love this time I have with Him.

Satan has been winning these last few days.

Satan is always making me feel weak, tired, too busy, too sore, too distracted with other unimportant things.

I am so disappointed in myself for letting Satan win.

He knows that I need that time to pray and be completely consumed with God and he hates that, Satan doesn't want me to depend on God.

And I have let Satan take that special time that I have with God away from me these last few days.

And I will do that NO MORE!

I ran today.

It felt good and it was so hard all at the same time.

I feel better about myself when I run and when I don't run, I feel guilty and fat and lazy, just like Satan wants me to feel.

I will not let Satan make me feel that way anymore!

I have a lot of work to do to get to the point of being able to run my 5K on June 4th, but with God's help, I know I will be able to do it.